Jon Corby wrote:James Robinson wrote:I don't wish to run down Andy. He had a fabulous debut on Tuesday, but the last 2 days have just been a huge disappointment, bar the last bit of yesterday's game... I was just saying that I was getting frustrated and disappointed that he was missing many "obvious" words, and that if he'd played to his known potential he'd have got them.
Well you are running him down in a massive, massive way.
If I'm understanding this correctly though, had Andy's games been the other way around, he'd have avoided your ire? It's just cos he had (in your eyes) a great debut and spotted lots that you consider "good", that you thought he should subsequently see other things that... well, that you think he should spot? What if that first game was the anomaly? (see Charlie in the last CoC for an example of a really shit player suddenly coming good for one game)
(Ugh, do you know I'm really uncomfortable talking about on-screen contestants performances like this, but hopefully you get the point. I don't consider his first game an anomaly.)
Yeah, you've got it spot on, mate. I was willing him on, but when he kept on missing, it was sort of tearing me apart. If he is reading, I do apologise for any hurt I may have caused you.
Jon Corby wrote:James Robinson wrote:but my past is always going to leave a nasty taste in the back of my mouth, and that is highly unlikely to ever be rectified.

You need to let it go dude. It's bad enough that you let it affect you this much, but when you start projecting that out onto others, you really need to deal with it.
As I said, I'm trying to be helpful here, you know that I like you really.
Yeah, I know I should give it up, but when you've improved as much as I have over the 2 and a half years since I last recorded (not that I was dreadful, just not in the same league as others), and then you see so many "mediocre" people wedged in with all the good Apterites, you know you've blown your chance.
That day will always be one of the happiest and saddest days ever in my life. How many other people have nearly cried on set after messing up a conundrum like I did

- Probably not many, if any. That's how much it hurts, but it's happened and will stay in my mind, so as much as I'd like to let it go, it is hard to.
I do though realise my error in letting it affect me in other ways, of which I also apologise again.
It is so hard, and yet at the same time, such a tedious thing to be upset about, but I always do seem to let the smallest of things bug me.